I Love Holy Week! I'm actually more excited about this Holy Week than I'v ever been. Maybe its because I'm feeling ever so thankful this season, or maybe I'v grown a bit closer to Jesus and am feeling more humbled. Either way, I'm choosing to delight in the days to come, whether that may hold tears or joy, I'm IN!!
Over the next 7 days I'm going to write about whatever the Holy Spirit lays on my heart. Now I am not a writer, Id rather have a one on one conversation about Jesus with my running buddy Lauryn than sit down at my lap top and type words...But, this isn't about me, its about Jesus. And I'v learned that taking risks and leaps of faith (literally) is like jumping off a cliff into a beautiful pool of fresh, spring water...It feels SO good!! To do heavenly work touches the skin and the heart like nothing else on this earth. It is cool and warm and chilling all at the same time. It allows your heart to grow and gives deeper, personal meaning to "Jesus loves me this I know...".
I'm also thinking, in this scattered mind I have, if I can help but one soul see Jesus a little better this week, then I am totally taking this on...!
So here I Go..."CHIPPED"
See this mug here...its got that nice little spot on top that was chipped away in shipping or storage. We bought these mugs back before Christmas and I have loved selling them in our store. I love coffee and I obviously adore our Rooster, so there you go. I have not used nor brought home a mug until yesterday, Sunday. I found this one chipped and damaged, so I thought I might as well take it home for myself!! So this morning every sip of coffee I drank I looked at that spot and began to think and think and think about all the bits of my soul that have chipped away. My list of brokenness is long...my memories of bad decisions and wrong choices are there and will not disappear. My guilt of not doing "the right thing" lingers and sometimes strangles me. I can feel it, in my heart and in my bones... I am very sensitive by nature, and I always want to Fix things or at least Help. But you cannot go back and actually Fix the past...not like you can fix a tire, dust your hands off and keep on going. Its always there, in the back of your mind...you can cover it up by staying busy, being social, having fun, but it never actually goes away. Its always there, tucked away somewhere...Can you feel it?? I can...
Enter Jesus...the one and only son of God sent to this earth to save us and love us...with No conditions. None. Zero. No judgments. But sometimes we tell ourselves this but don't feel it deep down in the pits of heart. We like Jesus and the Bible, but do we let it honestly touch us and heal us?? I used to be a little scared of His words. What would they tell me? Do I want to hear it?? What will they convict me of? And then what?? Its daunting...but it is Real and it is healing...
"God's word is alive and working. It is sharper than a sword sharpened on both sides. It cuts all the way into us, where the soul and the spirit are joined. It cuts to the center of our joints and our bones. And God's word judges the thoughts and feelings in our hearts. Nothing in all the world can be hidden from God. Everything is clear and lies open before him. And to him we must explain the way we have lived." Hebrews 4:12-13
This is Truth, piercing words of truth. But following these words are these, cries of Jesus before his beloved father...
"While Jesus lived on earth, he prayed to God and asked God for help. He prayed with loud cries and tears to the One who could save him from death. And his prayer was heard because he left it all up to God." Hebrews 5: 7
My friends, this was my small piece to the big puzzle. I finally let go one day with tears and cries and sorrow and honesty and laid it all out there for God to heal. His words will bless you and love you and they will also convict you. And where there is conviction and great honesty there is this...
"Let us then feel free to come before God's throne. Here there is Grace. And we can receive the Mercy and Grace to help us when we need it." Hebrews 4:16
"So let us come near to God with a sincere heart and a sure faith. We have been cleansed and made free from feelings of guilt. And our bodies have been washed with pure water." Hebrews 10:22
This is Easter news my dear friends. This is Holy Week. We can go before God with our tears, our shame and our guilt and know that He will heal us and He will make us new. Every, single day!! Do not let your past define you! Jesus doesn't. He loves you right where you are. You are defined by God and what he sees in you. And what he sees is Beauty and Grace and a story ahead that no one else on earth can walk. So give Him your tears. He will weep with you and hold you and love you like no one else on earth!
Prayer: Precious Jesus, come into my heart and heal me and hold me. May you take all my tears and turn them into a beautiful story only we can tell together. Thank you for always loving me. Thank you for never leaving me...Amen